My Friend of Cautious Amusement

I dreamt of a mind meld but it was terrifying A stern cold voice and my "how did you get in here?" It held me inside the bubble as I tore against your presence My friend of cautious amusement, you don't know how I laugh now You've never seen me smile so wide, nor so happy How happy I am now, we never dared to imagine You might return but you won't know me You're not following what I'm trying to tell you I forget you don't see what I see You're not acknowledging what remains after the world breaks a heart If you reject the way life has turned out, you'll reject the inseperable self Why don't you accept my joys and sorrows Standing over this wishing well, trying to see our reflections I wonder if I'll ever again say what I used to say about you, and believe And I'm lowering, lowering this bucket into my heart I can't even say if it'll come up empty or brimming.